To Know and To Love

We should be thankful for the times that we have loved. Naturally, the heart isn’t a forbidden place, but through our hard times in life, it’s hard to venture into love and give that precious treasure away that you keep safe.

In our lives we are given opportunities to love. Loving our friends, family, strangers on the street, actions, motions, and even ourselves. The one that is hardest, is to love someone who might not love you back. Maybe an old lover, someone you just met, or a man you have too often obsessively thought about for the last ten years.

I know, it’s hard to let your heart out to those who have hurt you. I used to continuously hide it away and pretend like nothing ever happened, that my feelings aren’t involved. But today, I realized something. I had a dream about my Ex, someone I had been with for four years. No, I didn’t and still wouldn’t want to get back together with him, but he holds a special place in my heart. He’s shown me that love can be short, but it can be real. We both changed, and it’s okay to love someone with all your heart for a little while, but still love them from afar remembering that they changed you too.

So my thoughts ventured on, wondering why I had seen the movie, “Love, Rosie” for it was a movie that represented my love life with a man I had fallen for terribly. Best friends, but timing just wasn’t right, but now I see, that the love was right for that moment in my life to show me what I could feel for someone. even though we will never be together I’m happy to have found him. Now he is different and we have both moved on, and I love the old him.

That’s the thing about love. It doesn’t have restrictions. You love who you love. There is no changing that. Ever!

It comes unnaturally, at times we don’t expect. To be honest I’d rather have loved someone with all my heart than never at all.There is a moral in this story. The moral being that no matter who loves you. No matter who has changed, if it was you or them, loving gives you a glimpse into God. We must accept that love isn’t always right, or that you might love someone who no longer exists. But use that love to find the right love. Use the love you’ve had to know that in the future, you’re going to love someone even more.

Don’t let a few mess ups screw with your head. We are beings of love and even though it might seem like the world is out to get you, or your love life is cursed, just keep loving and someday God will put the right person in your life.

But be patient. Focus on yourself and just keep loving all that you encounter. And don’t let the fear of being hurt get in your way.

I love you, and keep fighting for your heart,

A. Willow

The heart is naturally a forbidden place.

Love isn’t naturally a forbidden place.

A Message to Trust

We are all victims to the unknown. We’ve all dealt with pain, all dealt with sorrow, anger and even death. The truth is, we are creatures of questions. We want to know everything before it happens, but how could we ever learn if God made it that way. We are blessed with hints here and there, feelings that arise to tell us if something is right or wrong. We fall to our own disasters. We can keep choosing to fall down the road of pain and hurt, or we can take the hints God gave us and use them to find a happier fate. We must have faith that someday, our sad experiences and open but healing hearts will see something magnificent. We aren’t living this life just to play it out and have it end. There is a purpose, a meaning to each and every soul on this earth. It just takes the heart to find, the courage to unwind our fate, and jump into faith.

You can do it, because I and God believe in you. You just have to believe in yourself.

Love,

A. Willow

The Ways of Rain

Tears fall like clouds of sorrow,

Raining down upon my head.

All I want is to burrow.

Beneath the earth I should be safe,

And Yet, there is hate.

Inside thyself I feel the pulse

Of something Other that just wants to burst.

“Stop” I cry, “Stop it now!”

But its too late,

My heart soars to the sky.

There I see the sorrow in me,

And upon the heavens that did look down.

They sing, “My child, my child, why do you go about

Hating yourself and filling with doubt?”

I smile back at the angels above,

“I’m human, there is no other way.”

They look at me and laugh their beautiful song,

“Love is the way of all things this day.”

Without another word they send me back down,

To the place where I can be found.

Both between Heaven and of Hell.

Now I see my ways,

Now I see me.

And That my friends is how I came to be

Loving in all ways,

Including the love of me.

If I Could Fly

I wonder…

If I was able to fly. Where would I go?

Would I climb higher than the trees,

Or pass the shores?

The view from up above

I’m sure is nothing but serene.

But the thing I look forward to

Is having wind beneath my wings.

To lift higher and higher without a care to fall,

Now that is something I dream of.

Something I want in all.

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But flying is possible in a different sense,

But all of us are scared to fall,

So it doesn’t make sense.

We choose to stand on our ground

Unwavering from our view.

So I sit here wondering what if,

when all I need is to Do.

The End of Hope

Hmmmm…..

There isn’t much hope.

Or at least, that’s what I’m told.

Look past the dreams that you hide in your sleep.

And wake up to the world of solidarity….the reality.

I’ve been told, that maybe there is no hope.

I must rise on my own hard work and ethics,

Yet still I’ll be crushed by independence.

Too slow is the going. And I’m becoming.

“There is no hope they say”

,….No,  there’s no more pretending.

Instead I believe to be free,

Free  from the prison of my curiosiity.

I’m able, I’m equipped with the gifts that God gave me

I am quick and able to handle democracy.

Can’t you slave away the race.

No more hope, hah, now that is a joke.

For I slave away each and every day.

Believeing in something more, something that I will take.

There is still hope in the world, and the people who live in it.

There is still hope for the Jews, the Bi’s

There is no more hate.

So let go of your worries of hopeless tomorrows,

For today is the day that I believe I can change all sorrow.

I am the future, and I am the one,

Who can cast out our feelings like we have lost.

We have conquered many times before,

And yet still people say, “Hope is no more”

Hope is just a word of disbelief, for you don’t think it,

you feel it, and you’ll know when you speak.

So love the world and if hope is non to deplore.

You’ll feel the future coming will be beautiful once more.

Love and be loved my fellow friends.

 A. Willow

Places I’ll Never Know

I don’t really know where to go.

Maybe I’ll let the wind take me to a different shore.

Possibly to places I’ve never seen.

Places that might be serene.

But the more I think about it, the more I dread,

what is coming could very well be something else instead.

Could I land among the saints,

or maybe among those who hate?

Maybe life will take me on the shore,

of heaven’s mouth that does deplore.

I don’t know if it will lead me to the good or bad,

but I want to believe its somewhere I dream.

For without my dreams there is nothing.

I’m dead.

But I first must step foot off this land,

and view a different shore.